Not even two months ago I announced that I'll be attempting to run the length of the UK. This wasn't a spontaneous desire or some drunken New Years resolution. This had already been in planning for a year and half but I wanted the ElliptigOz adventure to be complete before sharing. If you follow me on any of my social media channels you'll have seen that I'm struggling with an injury of some sort. This may sound vague but I still don't know what's going on in my calf. I've been seeing physiotherapists for four months now, also a podiatrist and now a sports physician. I've had massages, suction therapy, acupuncture and all manner of treatments. I've been for an x-ray and an ultrasound scan, and nothing has come from these but I've been informed something isn't right. Next week, I'll be going for an MRI scan which I've been told should highlight whatever the problem is. To be honest, after dealing with it in the dark for so long, I'm not really too bothered what the outcome is. All I really want now is a diagnosis. A few months ago I wouldn't have said that. All I wanted was for it to be something quick and easy to fix, and for it to go away so I could get on with running. After all these months of adapting my training, decreasing training, increasing training, adding in more and more exercises, spending hours and hours, and many dollars on treatment, now I just want the answer. I've been feeling very frustrated and very stressed. Not knowing what's going on with your own body is very hard. I feel a lot of empathy with people that have illnesses that take a long time to diagnose. It plays at the back of my mind constantly. If I wake up in the night I can't get back to sleep as I'm wondering if it could be this or that. At work, I'm constantly worrying if standing is making the problem worse. With everything I do I'm very thorough and I analyse things. This has been no exception but without being an expert it's tiring and pointless. My frustrated energy is going nowhere and my training isn't where it should be. SO... It's with a very, very heavy heart that I have to announce that I'll be postponing my UK record attempt.
I still have just as much energy, passion and motivation for this project as I ever did, if not more. So much has happened behind the scenes that I haven't shared. I'll be working with some fantastic brands and have some incredible partnerships in the pipeline. Once my leg is back to 100% health I'll be thrilled to share this news with everyone. But for now, my priority has to be my leg and my overall fitness. Fingers crossed this week brings me some news. I'll keep you posted. :)
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Susan S
4/3/2018 09:27:22 pm
I found your blog post via Twitter and my god can I relate to everything you've said. A couple of years ago, I was a cyclist and a runner, and almost overnight, found myself unable to do neither. It took 18 long and frustrating months to diagnose my condition and I cried from relief when my problem was finally determined. I finally had surgery in December and I'm not sure of a full recovery, but where I am beats the months of non-diagnosis and mis-diagnoses.
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Emma Timmis
5/3/2018 10:33:49 am
Wow, Susan, I can't imagine 18 months of not knowing. I really feel for you. I bet it was such a relief when you finally got results. Thank you so much for reaching out to me. It's comforting to be understood but at the same time wouldn't wish the frustration on anyone.
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5/3/2018 11:29:17 am
It is only postponed not cancelled! You will get there.
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